Glen Russell: How I Discovered a Peace That Surpasses All Understanding
When people look at me they often remark they cannot imagine that I was once filled with anger, hate, bitterness and fear. This is my story of how I came to be on my spiritual path, what challenges I have faced, and how I was able to move away from living a life of fear, anger and hate, to living a life of relative peace and harmony. The spiritual path has not been easy, but the rewards of peace have been great.
There are a number of reasons why I am writing this account of my life. The first, as a disciple (student) of Jesus Christ, I am at the end of a 2 year spiritually channeled course by Jesus (Master Keys to Personal Christhood) which now requires me to tell my story to others who may be on or about to start their own spiritual path. The second and main reason I am writing this story, is that others may find some inspiration or specific tools that I have used, to help them find inner peace also, and move beyond their own inner pain, fear, hate and anger.
I have always known from a young age I was different from others. (That's me to the left age 7) I was a shy and sensitive child and I was very afraid of others who were deliberately mean and cruel. I was afraid of what others thought of me, because I knew they could sense I was different. I wanted only peace and this did not go down well with the bullies who wanted only conflict. I can remember when I was 8 years old at school, going behind the library during lunchtimes and crying over the bullying I witnessed and was occasionally on the receiving end of. How could people on Earth be so cruel? I thought. I was crying for the pain of the world and for my own pain I carried inside.
Being on the receiving end of much anger, hate and personal attack throughout my early life, I started to feel a great amount of anger and hate as well. The older I got, the more filled with anger and hate I felt and I began taking this out on others who were mean and cruel to me. I lost touch with my spiritual light – and I felt angry with the world and everyone in it.
This left me feeling lonely and deprived of love and from the age of 18 I began using sex to try and feel more loved and fulfilled. This created a sexual addiction within me that lasted for nearly 20 years. I was hoping to fill my life with any type of human loving experience, even if the love wasn’t there, I was hoping to find love through sex. I lived a lonely life, filled with deep sadness and emptiness, and I was desperate for someone to affirm to me through a relationship that I was loved and lovable. But the love never came – and it wasn’t meant to. I was meant to find a way to heal my pain and inner emptiness not through outer love, but by facing my pain and fears within.
At the age of 29 I became chronically ill. I was hospitalized for a week and then bed-ridden for months. I had no energy to walk and had to care for myself on my own. The universe or God was telling me through my illness: “Glen, your life is out of balance. You are searching in the wrong place for wholeness and love. You have not healed your pain and your fears”. I didn’t realize that message at the time, but I can see it looking back. During my early stay in hospital I began to feel very sorry for myself. A male nurse commented to me that he learned in his psychology course that when patients get sick they often regress and play the victim. Of course I knew he meant I was doing that and I became very angry - with myself! - for he was right, I WAS feeling like a victim. I vowed to myself in that moment I would never feel sorry for myself ever again, or blame anyone else, or play the victim. Being bed-ridden, I entered into a state of depression where the days were hell and the nightmares even worse. I decided in that moment I wanted to live and be well and find new meaning in my life. I lit a lavender candle every day and the aromatherapy of the lavender oil brought me out of my depression. I found the strength to crawl to the kitchen every day and cook healthy meals and eventually I grew stronger and stronger and my energy and ability to walk returned.
Soon after I started going to a local community center, mainly because I felt alone and wanted to connect with others. I joined a meditation group and connected with a very peaceful man who was a Buddhist. He showed me a simple chant to say for 5 minutes every day: “Nam Myo Renge Keo”, which means, “I tune myself to the true reality of my life, the oneness of cause and effect, the vibration of universal law”. What I did not realize was the powerful setting in motion of spiritual forces that would occur from commanding every day “I tune myself to the true reality of my life”!
Within a week everything changed. I could feel in my meditation that a seed was being planted in my mind by spiritual forces. I was suddenly having premonitions of future events. For example, I awoke from a dream where I saw a plane nose dive into the outer suburbs of New York. I said to myself, “When is this going to happen? And I received the answer: Two and a half days. Exactly two and half days later a plane nose-dived into the Bronx killing all on board in 2001. That night I had a dream that God’s hand was calling me to come with him and serve him.
At this time I felt I had to write down and channel the 12 parts of the ego – the fear-based energy within us. I wrote them down and these would later form the basis of the website www.theego.org At the time I was scared, excited, nervous, as all this was new and seemed overwhelming. I sometimes had premonitions during my life of things I knew would happen, but nothing like this. I attended a Mind-Body-Spirit festival in Sydney where I met a beautiful soul by the name of Christine Shepherd who trained me as a Reiki healer and a Shaman Psychic who said I was a healer and seat for Spirit.
While all this was happening I came under attack from the dark forces. I awoke one morning in bed and a demon entity had entered my body and was trying to take over my soul. It had hold of my body up to my neck so I couldn’t speak. In my mind I intuitively knew beyond all shadow of doubt that darkness had no power over the Light. And so I laughed at it. I then commanded with all the power of God in my mind to this demon – “F*** off!!” Immediately the entity left my body. The following night in a dream Satan appeared and tried to seduce me. I commanded again with all the power of God that this being leave me at once, and it did. The attacks stopped.
I knew the dark forces where trying to prevent me from fulfilling my spiritual purpose. That spiritual purpose was to heal myself and others, and to serve as a spiritual channel to bring more Light to Earth. But they were beginning to realize that their attacks were having no effect on me because of the absolute belief and knowing I had that darkness is always a servant of the Light, and has no power over the Light.
Within a few months I met my spiritual partner. We had been guided to come together to complete our karma and undertake a spiritual healing path. We knew immediately we wanted to open a healing center in time to come. I trained as a volunteer Lifeline counselor which I really loved. At the same time I knew something was missing spiritually in my life --- and that was direct teachings from God to help guide me on my spiritual purpose. I had been to church a few times in my life and had long conversations with the pastor who said if I did not have a personal relationship with Jesus then I would go to hell. This didn’t feel right with me and didn’t make sense either, and I wanted answers not from a church or a pastor, but from the Source – God.
I can remember one day I went into a large spiritual book shop in Sydney. Before I crossed the road to enter, I could feel a severe pain in my body and I intuitively knew it was dark forces trying to stop me from entering. I commanded in the name of God three times for this darkness to leave my body, which it did. When I entered the bookstore, there looked to me like an angel serving at the counter. I searched for what seemed like an hour for a spiritual book that could help show me the true way to God. Nothing seemed to grab me. In desperation in the middle of the shop, I closed my eyes and I said a silent prayer to God: “God if there is a book in here for me, please show me where it is”. Immediately my eyes opened and I felt compelled to walk 10 paces to my right, to a particular shelf and specific location. I pulled out the book my eyes were drawn to, and it was the book “Conversations with God”, by Neale Donald Walsch. I bought the first 3 books of the series and read them all within a week. They resonated within me and gave me what I was looking for --- an overview of our true spiritual purpose and advice and guidance on how to become a spiritual master.
I then relocated to New Zealand with my spiritual partner and transferred to Lifeline Auckland. During one evening at Lifeline, I was on shift with a lady called Angela who happened to be a spiritual channel for the Ascended Masters. She explained they wanted to have a meeting with me and that I would eventually serve as a spiritual channel for them also. The masters explained to me I was pure of heart, yet I had a volcano of anger and hate still inside of me. They asked me if I wanted them to remove this hate and anger. I said no, because I wanted to find a way to release it on my own so I could help others. They also asked me if I wanted a spiritual teacher, and I said yes!
The following day at Lifeline, without me knowing, the masters organized for a senior manager to insult me. I felt a huge amount of hate boil up within me that I had never felt before. I decided I would write a letter to the CEO to express my outrage and anger over being insulted so unfairly. After writing two pages, all my hate and anger for this man was gone and I felt no desire to post the letter. I knew that writing my feelings on paper had released all my hate and anger and I could teach others to do the same. The next day at Lifeline, Angela said the masters were very happy with what had transpired.
My overwhelming fear of other people, however, was still there – and I wanted it gone. I didn’t know how I was going to get rid of it, but I was determined to find a way. I decided to train as a hypnotherapist and EFT therapist. Although I had earlier been to one hypnotherapist without success to remove my fear of other people, I asked my hypnotherapy trainer Roger to work with me to help me overcome my fear, particularly my fear of mean and cruel people. Within one session the majority of my fear was gone! I couldn’t believe it and I went on to finish my training as a hypnotherapist.
The EFT therapy I learned helped me to remove anger and hate I was still feeling towards others. This technique required me to tap on meridian energy points on my face and upper body and tap away the anger and hate. It seemed really silly at first, tapping on your face, but I persisted. I was truly amazed that the overwhelming hate I had for my Aunt who beat me up as a child was all gone within 30 minutes!
At this point in 2005, a few months after my meeting with the ascended masters El Morya, Serapis Bay, Djwhal Khul and others, I was led to the teachings of Maitreya who was to become my spiritual teacher. These teachings can be found at www.maitreya-teachings.org which gave me great guidance on my spiritual path.
I began seeing clients of my own to help them release their fears, anger, hate, grief and emotional pain. Before I undertook a session with a client, even at Lifeline counseling, I would always say a prayer of protection first, and ask the Heavenly Father to provide me with the right words to say. During every session with a client I felt my mind was connected to God and the spiritual masters, who provided me with the right words to say, and gave me clues along the way to let me know they were there. Occasionally a loved one of a client who had passed over would take over a part of my energy and express their pain through me. That was very draining and I felt like I had been hit by a bus, but I allowed it knowing it would bring healing to all involved.
My spiritual partner and I were having many arguments throughout this whole journey together. We were expressing much anger and hate towards each other and trying to control one another that only made things worse. After seeing clients of my own for emotional healing for a few years, I knew there was a part of me inside that was dying inside because of my own unresolved emotional pain. I intuitively knew at that time I had to give each of the 12 parts of my own ego a voice – to let them express how they were feeling on paper – which I did. One of these parts was the Angry-Hateful part. When I gave this part an uncensored voice to express its hate through me, I was amazed at the ugliness and poison and hate it felt for all people, for God, for the world, and for me. I kept allowing it to express its hate, its poison, to let the puss come out, until it had no more words to say. The poison wasn't nice to look at, but I knew I had to let it out and not censor it, and let the profanities be expressed on paper in their ugliest form.
I also knew I needed extra help as well, to tap into the unconscious part of my mind that was deeply sad and depressed and in pain. I decided to undertake a 10 day silent meditation retreat called Vipassana that a friend had mentioned 5 years earlier. I intuitively knew this meditation would connect me to my inner pain – the core of the pain of my soul. And it did! Every day on this retreat, I felt I was having a mini emotional breakdown that of course was healing and beneficial. I was able to feel pain I had never fully known was there before and forgive people I hadn’t forgiven, but thought I had. I was able to break through the “pain barrier” of sitting in meditation for long hours and realize that if pain couldn’t hurt me, then there was nothing to be afraid of anymore. I walked out of that meditation feeling I was transformed.
But the healing of my emotional pain still continued after this retreat – for this was only the beginning. A few years later I intuitively changed my meditation to include the Lower Self Ego. I had always performed a Higher Self meditation to connect to my Higher Self, but now I felt I was being guided to start a Lower Self meditation. I did this simply by meditating on the fears and the emotional pain that was still inside me and role playing the hurt of these emotions by expressing the pain mentally to others in the quiet of my own mind. I found every meditation I expressed huge amounts of pain, hurt, guilt and sadness to others and to God, in my mind. I was amazed out how I was able to connect to my core pain and heal myself in doing so, feeling tremendous afterwards, free of more and more pain each time. A psychic friend even pointed out to me, ‘Glen you have changed your meditation style and this is transforming your life.’
By this stage I was feeling pretty good. I had released over a five year period a mass of hate and anger and pain and guilt. Every day of this five year period I made sure I was doing something to heal myself, so the masters had something to work with – which was my own momentum and desire to heal.
My spiritual partner and I had reached a point in our lives of separating a number of times and coming back together, especially during this later stage – for although we were spiritual partners, we were definitely walking our own separate spiritual paths of healing our emotions, and this bringing up of these emotions nearly caused our relationship to come to an end a number of times.
In 2008 we were both guided to move to the Gold Coast in Australia. It was during this time away that we were led to find the ascended master course “Master Keys to Personal Christhood”, which is a 2 year course by Jesus, channeled by Kim Michaels. This course has two other books “Master Keys to Spiritual Freedom” by Maitreya and “Master Keys to the Abundant Life” by Mother Mary. To say this course has changed our life and our relationship together is an understatement. I thought I knew a lot about ascended master teachings, but this course requires that you invoke the ascended masters and the Archangels of Light to enter your soul and bring up from your deep unconscious mind all remaining fears and pain that still needs to be cleared.
For the first 2-3 months, every second day seemed like we were having a mini emotional breakdown. Of course we knew it was healing by bringing up all remaining puss, but it was tough going – and when the going gets tough, the truly spiritual stay put and endure it! There were a number of times we both felt like walking away because it was so tough going, but we knew the rewards were coming thick and fast – the peace, the healing of our relationship, the healing of our remaining sexual addictions and others, our fears and expectations and many more. We have finished the course and are truly different people, in that we have faced and removed most of our fears and inner pain that has kept us on the wheel of reincarnation. I thought I had found a peace a few years earlier, but the peace I have found throughout this course is truly a peace that surpasses all understanding.
Of course we have still a ways to go and are still finding new hidden fears and some remnants of unhealed pain that still needs to be healed through life experience and facing our fears – and this as the masters say is truly a journey of a thousand miles. You will know you have reached a state of enlightenment, they say, when the prince of this world comes (a metaphor for conflict and negativity) and has nothing in you – in other words you will remain completely unaffected and remain in a state of perfect peace at all times, regardless of the conflict and negativity around you. And this is part of the testing process, that you are continually tested with negative experiences.
And this requires an attitude of forgiveness towards every experience. For every experience is an opportunity to learn perfect peace by accepting and forgiving every experience as a wisdom experience.
Although the 2-year course by Jesus did focus on forgiveness, we have now been guided to study the 1-year course: “A Course In Miracles” that teaches perpetual forgiveness. We were originally guided to read “The Disappearance of the Universe” by Gary R Renard, an account of two ascended masters discussing A Course In Miracles, and we were glad that we have read this book prior to undertaking ACIM, as it provides a more thorough understanding of what the course is all about.
What I have discovered throughout this whole process is that every soul, whether they realize it or not, or accept it or not, is walking the path of Christhood and Buddhahood – two separate states of consciousness that focus on “oneness” (Christhood) and “enlightenment” (Buddhahood). When you accept that you are walking these two spiritual paths, and indeed walk these paths, as well as share with others how they too can walk these paths, then you become the Living Christ and the Living Buddha. You become a servant to All to raise up All Parts of God.
Walking the spiritual path is not easy – but choosing not to walk the spiritual path is much harder. I have seen so many so-called ‘spiritual people’ who are in a state of still-stand, who refuse to tackle their inner fears and inner pain on a daily basis. According to the masters it takes on average 10-15 years for a spiritual soul to self-purify the majority of their pain and fears if they are doing so on a regular constant daily basis. What I have discovered is that if you want to truly progress spiritually you have to prioritize healing your emotions as the number 1 daily activity of your life. The masters refer to this as the Omega aspect of the spiritual path – pulling the beam from your own eye – and comment that it is the most overlooked aspect of the spiritual path, and is the most important. The Alpha aspect is meditation (connecting to your Higher Self) and studying spiritual teachings of the masters.
Looking at yourself in the Cosmic Mirror is also very difficult. Every single thing that you see in another person or in the world that you hate and are not able to forgive is an element of your own soul/psyche that you have not yet forgiven. It is being reflected back to you to help you see where your unforgiveness still resides. Most souls resent the Cosmic Mirror that is the true healer. They resent having to see themselves and their flaws being reflected back to them through other people and the world – and that is if they are even willing to see, for most souls are unwilling to take responsibility for their own unforgiveness and prefer instead to play the victim and blame the rest of the world.
According to the masters, prior to your birth, every negative experience or person that shows up in your life, YOU have authorized for that negative experience or person to show up in your life so that you can see where your unforgiveness still resides.
As a spiritual counselor most of the souls I see are either walking one of two paths. They are either taking responsibility for their own unforgiveness and have reached the awareness that every experience is an opportunity to awaken and forgive themselves and others, or they are still trapped on the path of unforgiveness and refuse to take responsibility preferring to blame others and the rest of the world for their pain. Those who walk the path of forgiveness discover a peace beyond all words. Those who walk the path of unforgiveness discover the consciousness of weeping and gnashing teeth.
I used to be on the path of unforgiveness and I am now firmly anchored on the path of forgiveness. This is truly the dividing line between those who find peace and those who do not. If you have any questions about the spiritual path I have taken or would like any guidance, please feel free to email me at punawaiora@gmail.com
Namaste (I honor the God in you)
Glen Russell
When people look at me they often remark they cannot imagine that I was once filled with anger, hate, bitterness and fear. This is my story of how I came to be on my spiritual path, what challenges I have faced, and how I was able to move away from living a life of fear, anger and hate, to living a life of relative peace and harmony. The spiritual path has not been easy, but the rewards of peace have been great.
There are a number of reasons why I am writing this account of my life. The first, as a disciple (student) of Jesus Christ, I am at the end of a 2 year spiritually channeled course by Jesus (Master Keys to Personal Christhood) which now requires me to tell my story to others who may be on or about to start their own spiritual path. The second and main reason I am writing this story, is that others may find some inspiration or specific tools that I have used, to help them find inner peace also, and move beyond their own inner pain, fear, hate and anger.
I have always known from a young age I was different from others. (That's me to the left age 7) I was a shy and sensitive child and I was very afraid of others who were deliberately mean and cruel. I was afraid of what others thought of me, because I knew they could sense I was different. I wanted only peace and this did not go down well with the bullies who wanted only conflict. I can remember when I was 8 years old at school, going behind the library during lunchtimes and crying over the bullying I witnessed and was occasionally on the receiving end of. How could people on Earth be so cruel? I thought. I was crying for the pain of the world and for my own pain I carried inside.
Being on the receiving end of much anger, hate and personal attack throughout my early life, I started to feel a great amount of anger and hate as well. The older I got, the more filled with anger and hate I felt and I began taking this out on others who were mean and cruel to me. I lost touch with my spiritual light – and I felt angry with the world and everyone in it.
This left me feeling lonely and deprived of love and from the age of 18 I began using sex to try and feel more loved and fulfilled. This created a sexual addiction within me that lasted for nearly 20 years. I was hoping to fill my life with any type of human loving experience, even if the love wasn’t there, I was hoping to find love through sex. I lived a lonely life, filled with deep sadness and emptiness, and I was desperate for someone to affirm to me through a relationship that I was loved and lovable. But the love never came – and it wasn’t meant to. I was meant to find a way to heal my pain and inner emptiness not through outer love, but by facing my pain and fears within.
At the age of 29 I became chronically ill. I was hospitalized for a week and then bed-ridden for months. I had no energy to walk and had to care for myself on my own. The universe or God was telling me through my illness: “Glen, your life is out of balance. You are searching in the wrong place for wholeness and love. You have not healed your pain and your fears”. I didn’t realize that message at the time, but I can see it looking back. During my early stay in hospital I began to feel very sorry for myself. A male nurse commented to me that he learned in his psychology course that when patients get sick they often regress and play the victim. Of course I knew he meant I was doing that and I became very angry - with myself! - for he was right, I WAS feeling like a victim. I vowed to myself in that moment I would never feel sorry for myself ever again, or blame anyone else, or play the victim. Being bed-ridden, I entered into a state of depression where the days were hell and the nightmares even worse. I decided in that moment I wanted to live and be well and find new meaning in my life. I lit a lavender candle every day and the aromatherapy of the lavender oil brought me out of my depression. I found the strength to crawl to the kitchen every day and cook healthy meals and eventually I grew stronger and stronger and my energy and ability to walk returned.
Soon after I started going to a local community center, mainly because I felt alone and wanted to connect with others. I joined a meditation group and connected with a very peaceful man who was a Buddhist. He showed me a simple chant to say for 5 minutes every day: “Nam Myo Renge Keo”, which means, “I tune myself to the true reality of my life, the oneness of cause and effect, the vibration of universal law”. What I did not realize was the powerful setting in motion of spiritual forces that would occur from commanding every day “I tune myself to the true reality of my life”!
Within a week everything changed. I could feel in my meditation that a seed was being planted in my mind by spiritual forces. I was suddenly having premonitions of future events. For example, I awoke from a dream where I saw a plane nose dive into the outer suburbs of New York. I said to myself, “When is this going to happen? And I received the answer: Two and a half days. Exactly two and half days later a plane nose-dived into the Bronx killing all on board in 2001. That night I had a dream that God’s hand was calling me to come with him and serve him.
At this time I felt I had to write down and channel the 12 parts of the ego – the fear-based energy within us. I wrote them down and these would later form the basis of the website www.theego.org At the time I was scared, excited, nervous, as all this was new and seemed overwhelming. I sometimes had premonitions during my life of things I knew would happen, but nothing like this. I attended a Mind-Body-Spirit festival in Sydney where I met a beautiful soul by the name of Christine Shepherd who trained me as a Reiki healer and a Shaman Psychic who said I was a healer and seat for Spirit.
While all this was happening I came under attack from the dark forces. I awoke one morning in bed and a demon entity had entered my body and was trying to take over my soul. It had hold of my body up to my neck so I couldn’t speak. In my mind I intuitively knew beyond all shadow of doubt that darkness had no power over the Light. And so I laughed at it. I then commanded with all the power of God in my mind to this demon – “F*** off!!” Immediately the entity left my body. The following night in a dream Satan appeared and tried to seduce me. I commanded again with all the power of God that this being leave me at once, and it did. The attacks stopped.
I knew the dark forces where trying to prevent me from fulfilling my spiritual purpose. That spiritual purpose was to heal myself and others, and to serve as a spiritual channel to bring more Light to Earth. But they were beginning to realize that their attacks were having no effect on me because of the absolute belief and knowing I had that darkness is always a servant of the Light, and has no power over the Light.
Within a few months I met my spiritual partner. We had been guided to come together to complete our karma and undertake a spiritual healing path. We knew immediately we wanted to open a healing center in time to come. I trained as a volunteer Lifeline counselor which I really loved. At the same time I knew something was missing spiritually in my life --- and that was direct teachings from God to help guide me on my spiritual purpose. I had been to church a few times in my life and had long conversations with the pastor who said if I did not have a personal relationship with Jesus then I would go to hell. This didn’t feel right with me and didn’t make sense either, and I wanted answers not from a church or a pastor, but from the Source – God.
I can remember one day I went into a large spiritual book shop in Sydney. Before I crossed the road to enter, I could feel a severe pain in my body and I intuitively knew it was dark forces trying to stop me from entering. I commanded in the name of God three times for this darkness to leave my body, which it did. When I entered the bookstore, there looked to me like an angel serving at the counter. I searched for what seemed like an hour for a spiritual book that could help show me the true way to God. Nothing seemed to grab me. In desperation in the middle of the shop, I closed my eyes and I said a silent prayer to God: “God if there is a book in here for me, please show me where it is”. Immediately my eyes opened and I felt compelled to walk 10 paces to my right, to a particular shelf and specific location. I pulled out the book my eyes were drawn to, and it was the book “Conversations with God”, by Neale Donald Walsch. I bought the first 3 books of the series and read them all within a week. They resonated within me and gave me what I was looking for --- an overview of our true spiritual purpose and advice and guidance on how to become a spiritual master.
I then relocated to New Zealand with my spiritual partner and transferred to Lifeline Auckland. During one evening at Lifeline, I was on shift with a lady called Angela who happened to be a spiritual channel for the Ascended Masters. She explained they wanted to have a meeting with me and that I would eventually serve as a spiritual channel for them also. The masters explained to me I was pure of heart, yet I had a volcano of anger and hate still inside of me. They asked me if I wanted them to remove this hate and anger. I said no, because I wanted to find a way to release it on my own so I could help others. They also asked me if I wanted a spiritual teacher, and I said yes!
The following day at Lifeline, without me knowing, the masters organized for a senior manager to insult me. I felt a huge amount of hate boil up within me that I had never felt before. I decided I would write a letter to the CEO to express my outrage and anger over being insulted so unfairly. After writing two pages, all my hate and anger for this man was gone and I felt no desire to post the letter. I knew that writing my feelings on paper had released all my hate and anger and I could teach others to do the same. The next day at Lifeline, Angela said the masters were very happy with what had transpired.
My overwhelming fear of other people, however, was still there – and I wanted it gone. I didn’t know how I was going to get rid of it, but I was determined to find a way. I decided to train as a hypnotherapist and EFT therapist. Although I had earlier been to one hypnotherapist without success to remove my fear of other people, I asked my hypnotherapy trainer Roger to work with me to help me overcome my fear, particularly my fear of mean and cruel people. Within one session the majority of my fear was gone! I couldn’t believe it and I went on to finish my training as a hypnotherapist.
The EFT therapy I learned helped me to remove anger and hate I was still feeling towards others. This technique required me to tap on meridian energy points on my face and upper body and tap away the anger and hate. It seemed really silly at first, tapping on your face, but I persisted. I was truly amazed that the overwhelming hate I had for my Aunt who beat me up as a child was all gone within 30 minutes!
At this point in 2005, a few months after my meeting with the ascended masters El Morya, Serapis Bay, Djwhal Khul and others, I was led to the teachings of Maitreya who was to become my spiritual teacher. These teachings can be found at www.maitreya-teachings.org which gave me great guidance on my spiritual path.
I began seeing clients of my own to help them release their fears, anger, hate, grief and emotional pain. Before I undertook a session with a client, even at Lifeline counseling, I would always say a prayer of protection first, and ask the Heavenly Father to provide me with the right words to say. During every session with a client I felt my mind was connected to God and the spiritual masters, who provided me with the right words to say, and gave me clues along the way to let me know they were there. Occasionally a loved one of a client who had passed over would take over a part of my energy and express their pain through me. That was very draining and I felt like I had been hit by a bus, but I allowed it knowing it would bring healing to all involved.
My spiritual partner and I were having many arguments throughout this whole journey together. We were expressing much anger and hate towards each other and trying to control one another that only made things worse. After seeing clients of my own for emotional healing for a few years, I knew there was a part of me inside that was dying inside because of my own unresolved emotional pain. I intuitively knew at that time I had to give each of the 12 parts of my own ego a voice – to let them express how they were feeling on paper – which I did. One of these parts was the Angry-Hateful part. When I gave this part an uncensored voice to express its hate through me, I was amazed at the ugliness and poison and hate it felt for all people, for God, for the world, and for me. I kept allowing it to express its hate, its poison, to let the puss come out, until it had no more words to say. The poison wasn't nice to look at, but I knew I had to let it out and not censor it, and let the profanities be expressed on paper in their ugliest form.
I also knew I needed extra help as well, to tap into the unconscious part of my mind that was deeply sad and depressed and in pain. I decided to undertake a 10 day silent meditation retreat called Vipassana that a friend had mentioned 5 years earlier. I intuitively knew this meditation would connect me to my inner pain – the core of the pain of my soul. And it did! Every day on this retreat, I felt I was having a mini emotional breakdown that of course was healing and beneficial. I was able to feel pain I had never fully known was there before and forgive people I hadn’t forgiven, but thought I had. I was able to break through the “pain barrier” of sitting in meditation for long hours and realize that if pain couldn’t hurt me, then there was nothing to be afraid of anymore. I walked out of that meditation feeling I was transformed.
But the healing of my emotional pain still continued after this retreat – for this was only the beginning. A few years later I intuitively changed my meditation to include the Lower Self Ego. I had always performed a Higher Self meditation to connect to my Higher Self, but now I felt I was being guided to start a Lower Self meditation. I did this simply by meditating on the fears and the emotional pain that was still inside me and role playing the hurt of these emotions by expressing the pain mentally to others in the quiet of my own mind. I found every meditation I expressed huge amounts of pain, hurt, guilt and sadness to others and to God, in my mind. I was amazed out how I was able to connect to my core pain and heal myself in doing so, feeling tremendous afterwards, free of more and more pain each time. A psychic friend even pointed out to me, ‘Glen you have changed your meditation style and this is transforming your life.’
By this stage I was feeling pretty good. I had released over a five year period a mass of hate and anger and pain and guilt. Every day of this five year period I made sure I was doing something to heal myself, so the masters had something to work with – which was my own momentum and desire to heal.
My spiritual partner and I had reached a point in our lives of separating a number of times and coming back together, especially during this later stage – for although we were spiritual partners, we were definitely walking our own separate spiritual paths of healing our emotions, and this bringing up of these emotions nearly caused our relationship to come to an end a number of times.
In 2008 we were both guided to move to the Gold Coast in Australia. It was during this time away that we were led to find the ascended master course “Master Keys to Personal Christhood”, which is a 2 year course by Jesus, channeled by Kim Michaels. This course has two other books “Master Keys to Spiritual Freedom” by Maitreya and “Master Keys to the Abundant Life” by Mother Mary. To say this course has changed our life and our relationship together is an understatement. I thought I knew a lot about ascended master teachings, but this course requires that you invoke the ascended masters and the Archangels of Light to enter your soul and bring up from your deep unconscious mind all remaining fears and pain that still needs to be cleared.
For the first 2-3 months, every second day seemed like we were having a mini emotional breakdown. Of course we knew it was healing by bringing up all remaining puss, but it was tough going – and when the going gets tough, the truly spiritual stay put and endure it! There were a number of times we both felt like walking away because it was so tough going, but we knew the rewards were coming thick and fast – the peace, the healing of our relationship, the healing of our remaining sexual addictions and others, our fears and expectations and many more. We have finished the course and are truly different people, in that we have faced and removed most of our fears and inner pain that has kept us on the wheel of reincarnation. I thought I had found a peace a few years earlier, but the peace I have found throughout this course is truly a peace that surpasses all understanding.
Of course we have still a ways to go and are still finding new hidden fears and some remnants of unhealed pain that still needs to be healed through life experience and facing our fears – and this as the masters say is truly a journey of a thousand miles. You will know you have reached a state of enlightenment, they say, when the prince of this world comes (a metaphor for conflict and negativity) and has nothing in you – in other words you will remain completely unaffected and remain in a state of perfect peace at all times, regardless of the conflict and negativity around you. And this is part of the testing process, that you are continually tested with negative experiences.
And this requires an attitude of forgiveness towards every experience. For every experience is an opportunity to learn perfect peace by accepting and forgiving every experience as a wisdom experience.
Although the 2-year course by Jesus did focus on forgiveness, we have now been guided to study the 1-year course: “A Course In Miracles” that teaches perpetual forgiveness. We were originally guided to read “The Disappearance of the Universe” by Gary R Renard, an account of two ascended masters discussing A Course In Miracles, and we were glad that we have read this book prior to undertaking ACIM, as it provides a more thorough understanding of what the course is all about.
What I have discovered throughout this whole process is that every soul, whether they realize it or not, or accept it or not, is walking the path of Christhood and Buddhahood – two separate states of consciousness that focus on “oneness” (Christhood) and “enlightenment” (Buddhahood). When you accept that you are walking these two spiritual paths, and indeed walk these paths, as well as share with others how they too can walk these paths, then you become the Living Christ and the Living Buddha. You become a servant to All to raise up All Parts of God.
Walking the spiritual path is not easy – but choosing not to walk the spiritual path is much harder. I have seen so many so-called ‘spiritual people’ who are in a state of still-stand, who refuse to tackle their inner fears and inner pain on a daily basis. According to the masters it takes on average 10-15 years for a spiritual soul to self-purify the majority of their pain and fears if they are doing so on a regular constant daily basis. What I have discovered is that if you want to truly progress spiritually you have to prioritize healing your emotions as the number 1 daily activity of your life. The masters refer to this as the Omega aspect of the spiritual path – pulling the beam from your own eye – and comment that it is the most overlooked aspect of the spiritual path, and is the most important. The Alpha aspect is meditation (connecting to your Higher Self) and studying spiritual teachings of the masters.
Looking at yourself in the Cosmic Mirror is also very difficult. Every single thing that you see in another person or in the world that you hate and are not able to forgive is an element of your own soul/psyche that you have not yet forgiven. It is being reflected back to you to help you see where your unforgiveness still resides. Most souls resent the Cosmic Mirror that is the true healer. They resent having to see themselves and their flaws being reflected back to them through other people and the world – and that is if they are even willing to see, for most souls are unwilling to take responsibility for their own unforgiveness and prefer instead to play the victim and blame the rest of the world.
According to the masters, prior to your birth, every negative experience or person that shows up in your life, YOU have authorized for that negative experience or person to show up in your life so that you can see where your unforgiveness still resides.
As a spiritual counselor most of the souls I see are either walking one of two paths. They are either taking responsibility for their own unforgiveness and have reached the awareness that every experience is an opportunity to awaken and forgive themselves and others, or they are still trapped on the path of unforgiveness and refuse to take responsibility preferring to blame others and the rest of the world for their pain. Those who walk the path of forgiveness discover a peace beyond all words. Those who walk the path of unforgiveness discover the consciousness of weeping and gnashing teeth.
I used to be on the path of unforgiveness and I am now firmly anchored on the path of forgiveness. This is truly the dividing line between those who find peace and those who do not. If you have any questions about the spiritual path I have taken or would like any guidance, please feel free to email me at punawaiora@gmail.com
Namaste (I honor the God in you)
Glen Russell
Arthur King: Joining the Spiritual Path
This is my account of joining the spiritual path which I feel goes back when I was a child aged about 8-10 years old. (Picture of Arthur to the left aged 10 yrs) My parents were very religious despite the fact that I grew up in a very violent home. We were very poor due to the fact that my father had a severe alcoholic addiction. And we were also subjected to much darkness because of our cultural beliefs as indigenous people of New Zealand. It was a much practiced exercise to call upon spirits for many different reasons and sadly the beckoning of the spirits was used to bring great harm to many different souls as revenge or other reasons ranging from jealousy, anger, hatred or trying to control other people. I witnessed many souls being the recipient of these dark and destructive practices.
I was raised in a religion founded by the prophet T.W.RATANA. This religion was introduced to bring the Maori people of New Zealand from worshipping Gods and calling upon dark spirits to bring grief and trauma to other souls and bring them into the realm of God and to understand the peace of the Holy Spirit. However as a young child I had this inner feeling that there was something that I needed to find in my life but I didn’t know what I was looking for. My parents joined a spiritual healing group when I was aged approx 10 years old. This had a major impact on my life and was to be the centre of my life to come.
This was a movement based upon the fact that God was the Creator of All Things. This movement was the main instrument in my seeking out the path of the Christ Consciousness though at that time of my life I did not know the meaning of Christ Consciousness. Even though I witnessed many beautiful spiritual visions and had many conversations with spiritual beings working in the light of God I still felt there was still something to seek to fulfill this void that i had within me. From a young age I had experienced many sexual encounters with men and eventually grew up and married at age 24. When I married I felt I was in love with my wife at that time and after 1 year of marriage I committed adultery with my then brother in law.
I then went on to have sex with many different men during my married life which ended 7 years later. The pressure of suppressing my true sexuality had driven me to be so unhappy that I was treating my wife with great disrespect. And eventually I divorced. I knew at this time of my life that there was something drastically wrong within me and I truly struggled with the inner turmoil that was raging through me. Not knowing how to overcome this feeling of total despair I did practice praying to God diligently hoping my life would miraculously change. But this wasn’t to be.
I then began focusing on my career which I thought would help me to forget all the unhappiness that I was feeling within. I then began shopping for anything and everything again thinking that this would help me overcome this void within me. I continued sex with men for many years and each time would think that I would find the right person that would make me happy. I need to mention that even after I divorced I still remained in denial that I was GAY and kept this a secret from family and friends by living overseas and living as a gay person. Pretending and living a lie. In 2002 I met a man and I entered into my first full gay relationship and this brought about new and challenging experiences which I did not anticipate. From this relationship I then found the courage to be honest to the world about my sexuality. However I always felt that I was a failure in Gods eyes for being gay.
From the age of approx 30 I started doing spiritual healing as my late mother had always done this type of work. And had foretold that I would eventually do the same type of spiritual healing as herself. With all the turmoil going on in my life I could not see how this could happen, as I truly felt inferior and unworthy because of my sexuality. But I did have great faith that God did love me and I knew that I had a higher purpose to serve in this lifetime.
My relationship with my partner became very volatile and caused us both great pain and suffering, each of us blaming the other for the turmoil in our relationship. Unable to see that only we are responsible for the conditions that our lives are in and not the result of someone else’s actions or our circumstances happening around us.
In 2008 my partner and I decided to move to Australia for awhile hoping to save some money and then return to N.Z. Within the 1st week of living in Australia my partner had found employment which enabled us to pay our expenses. I continued to seek employment but after 4-8 weeks it was evident that for whatever reason I was not going to get a job. So I started surfing the internet and eventually came across the "ASK REAL JESUS" website. This proved to be an amazing world of spiritual teachings channeled by Jesus, Mother Mary and Saint Germain. It is through this website that I came across the course and the books "Master Keys to Spiritual Freedom" channeled by Jesus, "Master Keys to The Abundant Life" channeled by Mother Mary and "Master Keys to Spiritual Freedom" channeled by Ascended Master Maitreya.
My partner and I made a decision to order the books and commence the Jesus Course. I need to mention prior to leaving New Zealand I prayed very hard to Mother Mary to please give us the Abundant life i.e. that is in terms of financial support as we desperately wanted to provide a healing centre for all who require spiritual healing to attend. And then 2 days before the books arrived for us to start the course I had an amazing dream where I saw Mother Mary drift past our door with an amazing smile (14ft tall) and then my own dear mother who has passed over appeared and said the words BIG MONEY COMING. I would take from this dream that Mother Mary had come to confirm that we were heading in the right direction spiritually. And my own mother confirming that our prayer of seeking financial assistance will be granted once we seek the Kingdom of God first.
The course was to prove even more challenging than I had thought and there were 2 occasions that I felt I couldn’t carry on doing it. But on each occasion I was blessed with the amazing awareness of experiencing the loving energy of my Higher Self where there was not a shred of fear within my being, undoubtedly the most amazing experience to feel this inner peace was truly indescribable. Though I have completed the course exercises and have grown spiritually to a new level I believe it is only now that the real work begins on walking the path of Christ Consciousness. I truly believe I am a work in progress.
I choose to grow and grow and grow with our beloved Creator knowing that we are all an extension of God and therefore we are all the one body of God. We are all spiritual brothers and sisters seeking to find our way home to our one Source.
Namaste (I honour the God in you)
Arthur King
This is my account of joining the spiritual path which I feel goes back when I was a child aged about 8-10 years old. (Picture of Arthur to the left aged 10 yrs) My parents were very religious despite the fact that I grew up in a very violent home. We were very poor due to the fact that my father had a severe alcoholic addiction. And we were also subjected to much darkness because of our cultural beliefs as indigenous people of New Zealand. It was a much practiced exercise to call upon spirits for many different reasons and sadly the beckoning of the spirits was used to bring great harm to many different souls as revenge or other reasons ranging from jealousy, anger, hatred or trying to control other people. I witnessed many souls being the recipient of these dark and destructive practices.
I was raised in a religion founded by the prophet T.W.RATANA. This religion was introduced to bring the Maori people of New Zealand from worshipping Gods and calling upon dark spirits to bring grief and trauma to other souls and bring them into the realm of God and to understand the peace of the Holy Spirit. However as a young child I had this inner feeling that there was something that I needed to find in my life but I didn’t know what I was looking for. My parents joined a spiritual healing group when I was aged approx 10 years old. This had a major impact on my life and was to be the centre of my life to come.
This was a movement based upon the fact that God was the Creator of All Things. This movement was the main instrument in my seeking out the path of the Christ Consciousness though at that time of my life I did not know the meaning of Christ Consciousness. Even though I witnessed many beautiful spiritual visions and had many conversations with spiritual beings working in the light of God I still felt there was still something to seek to fulfill this void that i had within me. From a young age I had experienced many sexual encounters with men and eventually grew up and married at age 24. When I married I felt I was in love with my wife at that time and after 1 year of marriage I committed adultery with my then brother in law.
I then went on to have sex with many different men during my married life which ended 7 years later. The pressure of suppressing my true sexuality had driven me to be so unhappy that I was treating my wife with great disrespect. And eventually I divorced. I knew at this time of my life that there was something drastically wrong within me and I truly struggled with the inner turmoil that was raging through me. Not knowing how to overcome this feeling of total despair I did practice praying to God diligently hoping my life would miraculously change. But this wasn’t to be.
I then began focusing on my career which I thought would help me to forget all the unhappiness that I was feeling within. I then began shopping for anything and everything again thinking that this would help me overcome this void within me. I continued sex with men for many years and each time would think that I would find the right person that would make me happy. I need to mention that even after I divorced I still remained in denial that I was GAY and kept this a secret from family and friends by living overseas and living as a gay person. Pretending and living a lie. In 2002 I met a man and I entered into my first full gay relationship and this brought about new and challenging experiences which I did not anticipate. From this relationship I then found the courage to be honest to the world about my sexuality. However I always felt that I was a failure in Gods eyes for being gay.
From the age of approx 30 I started doing spiritual healing as my late mother had always done this type of work. And had foretold that I would eventually do the same type of spiritual healing as herself. With all the turmoil going on in my life I could not see how this could happen, as I truly felt inferior and unworthy because of my sexuality. But I did have great faith that God did love me and I knew that I had a higher purpose to serve in this lifetime.
My relationship with my partner became very volatile and caused us both great pain and suffering, each of us blaming the other for the turmoil in our relationship. Unable to see that only we are responsible for the conditions that our lives are in and not the result of someone else’s actions or our circumstances happening around us.
In 2008 my partner and I decided to move to Australia for awhile hoping to save some money and then return to N.Z. Within the 1st week of living in Australia my partner had found employment which enabled us to pay our expenses. I continued to seek employment but after 4-8 weeks it was evident that for whatever reason I was not going to get a job. So I started surfing the internet and eventually came across the "ASK REAL JESUS" website. This proved to be an amazing world of spiritual teachings channeled by Jesus, Mother Mary and Saint Germain. It is through this website that I came across the course and the books "Master Keys to Spiritual Freedom" channeled by Jesus, "Master Keys to The Abundant Life" channeled by Mother Mary and "Master Keys to Spiritual Freedom" channeled by Ascended Master Maitreya.
My partner and I made a decision to order the books and commence the Jesus Course. I need to mention prior to leaving New Zealand I prayed very hard to Mother Mary to please give us the Abundant life i.e. that is in terms of financial support as we desperately wanted to provide a healing centre for all who require spiritual healing to attend. And then 2 days before the books arrived for us to start the course I had an amazing dream where I saw Mother Mary drift past our door with an amazing smile (14ft tall) and then my own dear mother who has passed over appeared and said the words BIG MONEY COMING. I would take from this dream that Mother Mary had come to confirm that we were heading in the right direction spiritually. And my own mother confirming that our prayer of seeking financial assistance will be granted once we seek the Kingdom of God first.
The course was to prove even more challenging than I had thought and there were 2 occasions that I felt I couldn’t carry on doing it. But on each occasion I was blessed with the amazing awareness of experiencing the loving energy of my Higher Self where there was not a shred of fear within my being, undoubtedly the most amazing experience to feel this inner peace was truly indescribable. Though I have completed the course exercises and have grown spiritually to a new level I believe it is only now that the real work begins on walking the path of Christ Consciousness. I truly believe I am a work in progress.
I choose to grow and grow and grow with our beloved Creator knowing that we are all an extension of God and therefore we are all the one body of God. We are all spiritual brothers and sisters seeking to find our way home to our one Source.
Namaste (I honour the God in you)
Arthur King
